Episode #74 – How To Awakened Internally?

There are things that you can subtract in your life that actually not contributing to your success.

You need to be very strategic and intentional of how you must spend your time.

1. Time Management

As I always like to say, time management is the key. You need to be a good steward with your time. Every one of us are given 24 hours in one day. God has allocated every one of us 24 hours in one day. And it’s up to you and me how you spend the time. Time is a commodity that you cannot renew. It is something that if you don’t use it, you’re going to lose it.

That’s why it’s important that you must be mindful and you must be faithful in the time that is given to you today because that’s all you have. This is it. You’re not going to be able to live the same life tomorrow.

2. Stop Waiting For Validation

And that’s why when you have this awaken internally, you’re no longer looking around for people’s validation as I always like to say or permission how to exist and how to live. You are just going to do it. You’re not gonna wait for people’s opinion. Should I follow my dream? Should I do this? I used to do that.

I used to be so debilitated by the decision- making. I would call everybody in my phone list. What should I do with this? What do you think about this? And then they would have different opinions. Of course, people would have different point of view.

This is why I really think that if you want to make the decision, I always go by this verse. Proverbs 3:56. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding. Acknowledge him and he will direct your path. 

People do not know best. They might have an opinion. They might have an idea but they don’t know the future. They cannot foretell what the future holds. So this is why instead of asking five different people’s opinion about what should I do with my life, what is my purpose, maybe you should ask God. Yeah. The one who created you. He knows exactly why you’re here. He knows your abilities. He knows your talents. He knows your skills. He knows what you’re good at.

3. Trust In Yourself

So, this is why you must learn to have trust in yourself and by activating your inner intuition and inner voice by shutting down the noise around you by learning to really be connected with God and honing in that skill of the still small voice. Remember what happened to Ezekiel or is it Elijah? I’m sorry. Elijah when Elijah was trying to sought the voice of God. He said God was not in the wind. God was not in the storm.

He was in the still small voice.

4. Spend Time in a Dark Room

Awakening internally takes a lot of time in the dark room. Dark room is a place where you are going to have a conversation with yourself and with God the Father. Do you know why Jesus spent time alone in the Garden of Olive? Because that’s exactly where his dark room is for you. Maybe it’s in your closet. Maybe it’s in the toilet. Maybe it’s in your car. Maybe it’s in your bed at night when you are just tired and you have no one else to talk to.

For me, I sometimes just awaken at night, sometimes at 3:00 in the morning or midnight and I cannot sleep. And I would just lay down in my bed and I ask God, okay, you have awakened me. What is it that you want me to hear? Are you trying to teach me something today? What are you waking me up for? Sometimes we are awakened spiritually in those times because God has a message at midnight or at 3:00 am.

These are the times when maybe God is awake in us and because he knows that at those times we are not distracted. There’s no noise. It’s very quiet. And if you are able to listen to that inner voice which God is trying to tell you because throughout the day we’re too busy. Throughout the day we have so much responsibilities as a mom, as a wife, and we also have trying to raise a family and running our business.

But maybe because God is trying to get our attention at midnight or 3:00 in the morning. Usually that’s a time when God would speak to me very clearly and vividly of what his message is. And you really have to learn to listen to that still small voice that will guide you. Maybe he wants you to think about what you have done that day and the things that you wish you have done differently. You probably have not repented of the wrongdoings or maybe you have said a lot of bad things towards other people. Maybe he asked you to step out of your faith.

This is why awaken internally is also trusting that timing is everything. That learning that it’s okay to have failures. It’s okay not to have your life perfectly figured out. It’s about trial and error. It is about learning that sometimes life is not going to be a straight path. It’s never a linear path. It’s sometimes going to take you some detours.

Story Time:

Remember what happened to the Israelites. God did not take them directly to the promised land. God had to detour them. God had told them that before you go to the promised land, you must spend time in the wilderness because that was a training ground. The wilderness is a place for us to be trained by God, to listen to his voice, to really obey his commands and to have our trust in him and our allegiances. This is why I done a podcast many days ago about in the wilderness is where God is going to expose yourself to you. He’s going to show you your addictions, your bad habits, your identity that was crooked and convoluted because of what people say. God is going to expose to you about your mother wounds, your father wounds, your abandonment issue, your jealousy, prideful spirit that you have.

This is why it’s important that when you are going to develop and awaken internally, you must be uncomfortable sitting, you must be comfortable rather sitting in the dark room. You must not going to avoid that. You must learn to open up to this place of the spirit of the divine and the spirit of God and ask him, “Here I am, Lord. Speak now. What would you like me to hear?” Remember what happened to Samuel?

When Samuel was in that priesthood and he was being dropped by his mother and Samuel was called by God and the first time Samuel went to the priest I don’t remember the name Eli or something like that he said did you call me and then he went back to sleep and the priest said no I did not call you go back to sleep and then to make the short the story short finally Samuel came back the third time and the priest said, “I think it’s the Lord speaking to you. You must learn to listen. And when he speaks to you, this is exactly how you say.”

And so Samuel said to the Lord, “Here I am, Lord. I’m listening.” So in the dark room, when you are being awakened internally, God is going to speak to you. and he’s going to reveal himself to you only if you listen, only if you’re willing to understand what he’s saying. There’s a difference between listening with our audible ears.

When God speaks, it’s coming from your conscience. It is an internal dialogue. It is not auditory. It is not from your ears. Some people mistaken like you’re hearing voices. No, I’m not talking about that. It’s different. When God speaks to you, you will know it. It is a still small voice. It is calm. It does not intimidate. It does not condemn. When God speaks to you, he speaks in this manner of it is I the Lord. When I ask God, who are you sure this is not my voice?

And God speaks to me in this profoundly. It is I the Lord who’s speaking to you. I know it’s very it is very antiquated. It is archaic. When God introduced himself to me, the very first time I heard his voice a not audibly but internally, he this is exactly how he introduced it is I the Lord thy God speaking to you. He speaks in the most original language. It’s formal. It is not in a form that people use in our dialect today. It is something that the Bible that uses the King James version, it is archaic. It is very old.

And so, you know, when God speaks to you because it aligns with the Bible. It aligns with what he says in the Bible. He doesn’t contradict himself because God is not a man that he should lie. So in order for you to develop and awaken internally is also as I said you have to really interrogate most of your belief most of your indoctrination. Unfortunately we have been indoctrinated through the school system what we watch on TV and sometimes we have lose track of who we really are in the eyes of God.

And you need to interrogate why do I believe the way that I do? Where did this come from? How did I have this opinion? Who told me about these things? Why did I believe that I’m ugly? That I’m never going to amount up to anything? Where did this come from? Did my mom used to tell me this or did my dad used to give me these lies? Why do you believe the way that you do? Why do you have certain ideas in your head? Because there’s a root cause of it. It did not come from you. It did not originate from you. It’s actually it came from the people that brought you up. Usually the people that you have surrounded yourself with.

This is why the Bible is clear. Evil company corrupts good moral. As a baby, you are not corrupted. You are pure. I mean, supposedly we were born with sin. However, when you’re an infant though, you are still not darkened or influenced by people around you because you are still a baby. However, when you become older and you become an adulthood, the people around you will influence you based on how you think about yourself, how you view the world, and how you even engage in the world.

This is why it’s important that when you become an adult and you do have a choice and you have now the ability to distinguish between lie and the truth, you must know where did this come from. There are so many belief that I thought were true growing up. And then when I become an adult and I became in college, I went to school. I studied in college.

That’s when I realized that some of the upbringing and the lessons that I was taught were actually bogus and some of them were lies. And I realized that much of my life, I was brought up being religious, heathen, but there was no spiritual awakening. I was brought up in this idea of you need to show something externally by performing to people grandiose. It’s all about the looks. It’s about the the appearance.

And I realized what God said. I am not impressed by the appearance. I’m actually look at the heart. Remember what happened to Samuel when he anointed David and Samuel took I mean he made a mistake. He thought it was Eliab that was going to be the king because of his stature, because of his grandiose, confident. But God said people look at the appearance, but I look at the heart. People misjudge always. Just because you look the part, it doesn’t mean that you are God’s choice. Because God will always weigh your heart. He knows exactly the content of your heart.

And God is not impressed of how much money you have in the bank or how tall or how handsome you are. God is after character. God is all about learning to obey him and believing in him and being faithful. Much is required. If you are called by God, much is given, much is required. And this is why we have to really understand that being awakened internally takes a lot of self awareness, humility, being willing to be in the dark room, being willing to be broken into pieces, being peeled like an onion.

There are too many layers inside of you that God said, “I cannot have all of that layers.” This is why Jesus said, “You must walk in the narrow path. He’s going to narrow you down into a pulp where there’s no more choices.” So that’s what God does. He will actually tell you that the world is wide. Many goes there and everybody falls into a ditch. But when God start to wake awaken your internal compass, he will strip you off of everything that does not going to help you succeed in life. That’s why Jesus had to be very careful of who he surround himself with.

He only have 12 people around him. Jesus was very deliberate of choosing the right people around him. Jesus was also going to the mountaintop every time in the morning. He would talk to the father. He was always loving solitude. If you want to be awakened internally, you cannot be afraid of having solitude. You must embrace solitude. You must cultivate peace. That’s the only way for you to fully understand that in solitude you will listen to the voice of God. You will hear your own thoughts. you will start to realize that some of the things that you have been believing or actually been indoctrinated to you based on lies and pure propaganda.

And that’s why when you want to be able to be awakened internally is that you really have to be honest with yourself. There’s really no way out and it’s about stumbling down and getting back up. It’s about trial and error. You’re going to you’re not going to be perfect in one night. I had shed many tears in my dark room. I have shed many tears and I have been awakened many sleepless nights. And that’s why that’s the only way out is through.

The only way for you to have a breakthrough is getting through the nitty-gritty of what is happening inside of you. Because we do live in the world where many people are performing. You can see them performing. It’s all about trying to hide something underneath it. Sometimes we think that even if people are smiling, they they might seem happy, but you have no idea the kind of darkness that they have to go through in life or the kind of demons that they have to deal with behind closed doors.

So, we cannot just be fooled. I was that person. When I look at my old photos before, I thought from the outside looking in, I look like a happy girl. When I look at my pictures, I used to cry because I knew that I was just performing. When I look at my old pictures, I was actually lying to people, pretending like I was happy, smiling all the time. But little did people know that I was dealing with so much depression and suicidal thoughts at nighttime.

But because I was so good like everybody else to perform to hide behind the smile. That’s why it’s important that you must be authentic. You must be genuine enough to admit that you are not okay and it’s okay not to be okay. It’s okay to lay down your problems at the feet of the cross. And I think that is the message that I would like for you to think about that when Jesus said, “Come to me all of you who are weary and heavy laden.”

It is not about in exclusivity. He is inclusive. Jesus when he said all of you, it’s a plural. He didn’t only say a certain group of people can come or a certain individual, this you know this type of people can only come to the cross. It’s actually he said all of you weary and tired. That’s why the question is where do you turn to when you’re weary and tired?

Where do you turn to when the world is sometimes collapsing and it seems as though your world is falling apart and nothing is going right? Where do you turn to? Where does your help come from? My help comes from the Lord who is the maker of heaven and earth. And he will never fail you. He will never forsake you. He is a God that is so faithful.

Even if people will walk away from you, even if people might not be there for you today, but God promised us that he is a faithful God. That he will always go before us, beside us, and behind us. And so if you feel like no one is there to understand you, no one really gets what you’re going through. This is a time to remind yourself that there is one there is one God, the father who is in heaven who have created you fearfully and wonderfully made in his timing with his marvelous creation.

And he knows that when you are faithful, he is also faithful to help you get through life. And he said also that he does not give us a problem unless he knows we can manage and handle it. God does not give us difficulties when he knows that he cannot give us an exit plan. God is always giving us an exit plan, a strategy of how we can navigate in this hustle bustle, this arduous life problems that is going to come. I mean, I’ve been through a lot of temptation or trials in my life from this past few days.

And the only reason why I’m still standing today is because the spirit of God is able to guide me throughout this journey. It is only by his grace and by his strength. I always say, Lord, you are my fortress. You are my defender.